He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the Lord, “My Refuge and my Fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
Psalm 91:1-2
I took this picture last summer when my family and I went to Florida for vacation. At first glance I really loved the way it turned out, the shadow, the sand, the contrast of colors. However, in no time I was picking it apart- focusing on my body, searching for the “perfect” filter in an attempt to cover up the parts of me that I didn’t want to “share”. For as long as I can remember I have been insecure about my thick legs and chubby feet.
Insecurity has dictated so much of my life, even as I type this I’m second guessing every confession being made right now. Do I really want to expose my weaknesses? I have to wonder, when exactly did I start this self-loathing? Who ever told me I was not good enough? Sounds harsh, but these are honest words here.
Seems silly to be 44 and still concerned about such things. But to be honest the struggle is real and daily I must choose to take shelter in the Most High, whose thoughts are higher than mine.
It’s Day 9 and I’m choosing to abide in the shadow of the Almighty, not in the shadow of shame and self hatred.
Chances are you might struggle with insecurity too. Maybe somewhere along the line someone made a comment that forged the way for it, like I did. I wish I could take you by the hand and look you square in the eyes and tell you that our Maker makes no mistakes. — Carly
THE PEARL COMMUNITY 